Wednesday, June 30, 2004

Petrified

The suitors from the lake
force a craving silence
a monumental plethora
of fools, of pretenders...

This numbness
is desperately
futile in a sarcastic
and funnier way

You know where you are?
You are in the eye of the hurricane
and you stand still, petrified
looking at things you cannot grasp

A melody you've never heard before
an image never imagined
a smell uncovers
a different kind of warmth

I call it dreams and sleep
in a June cold rainy day
all you give is excess
all you take is fear

Dreaming...

Dreams of treason
dreams of darkness
all cause a headache
when you get to wake up

Dreaming of death
fighting wrath and anger
fighting yourself
for what you are to do

Where is peace?
Where is salvation?
What is the solution?

In a labyrinth I roam
trying to find my way out
trying to find my way
lost in every dark corridor
trying to locate
an exit
a passage
to the other side
of the

Monday, June 28, 2004

Chasing Clouds Away

Outstanding the pain
waiting for cheap salvation
a ferry boat approaching
please don't chase the clouds away

A mature neglection
in the voice of the singing bird
hips and bottoms dance on court
and forgotten as always
you open the door of death

Spirit of liquid fire
please come and take me
the wound is torn apart
and bleeding,
the heeling herb
didn't last that long
please don't chase my cloud away

Sunday, June 27, 2004

Suicide...

Have you ever felt deluded?
Have you ever sensed the lie?
Have you ever seen through the truth?
Have you ever felt afraid?
Have you ever felt helpless?

!Well I haven't!

I'm a man!
I never feel afraid, or helpless.
I never get hurt or misunderstood
I punch and kick and swing around
I write songs and poems and I fake my sound
I am a liar but I am above you all.
I am arrogant and selfish and a nutcase
An you believe my lies and stories and ferrytales

The people started leaving.
The ass-clown suits us no more
But some day too soon
perhaps even tomorrow
a cross will be his new dress
and what a superstar that will make him
for a day or two, or even a month.

You insane fool,
you trusted, and trusted
and shared and loved those people
and took care of them as if they were your children
and what did you get in return?
"Uhh...what's your name again?

Humping, humming
your death is coming
zavara katranemia ,
sabra cadabra
I'm your death aura

And then you'll die,
and I'll be happy
and my rage will be rested
and I will feel content
and I will be alone
and I will start to wonder
was it worth the bloodshed?
was it all worth it?
And a dialogue
between yes and now will start
and then I'll realize
I lost what I never had
I found what I never lost
I killed what I never hated
I loved what I never killed
I preached those who never learned
I got hurt by those who never hurt me
I killed him who was the only innocent;

...mysef...

I hate being happy for no reason
I hate seeking a reason into anything
I hate hating, but I hate not hating too
I hate confusion, but I love to create it
What am I?

Tides of Creation

Ghosts and devils
surrounded the couple
fighting with swords
and wooden staffs
life fighting death
love fighting hatred
son fighting father
light fighting darkness
accompanied by a requiem
a symphony of thunder
and explosion.

"You cannot win the Phoenix
I forced you to live alone
I exiled you to the dark land
I killed your friends and lovers
I split you to pieces
You cannot win the Phoenix"

And Azrael disappeared.

He placed his sword
back to his golden belt
he took the grown
from the wet ground
and cleaned it.

He kept on marching
until he reached the dungeons
where he heart loud desperate cries
He unlocked the door
and saw a young boy
embracing his pillow
crying, begging for help

"Calm down boy
the king is here to set you free"

The boy stopped
looked him in the eye
with this familiar look
of a temptation to form words
never heard before spoken
in this world

"Thy, free me?
Oh king thy comst in glory
Have thou ever considered
who has the need of being saved?"

"Who are you?"
asked the king

"I am the tides of creation
I am the poet within this kingdom
You used me to express the hatred
you used me to convince the righteous"

The king embraced the boy
and in a moment they became one.
The king found another lost place
of his old self, and felt now more complete

Saturday, June 26, 2004

Paradise & Freedom

Where the nymph shares what she gets
Where the muse appeals to the season
Where Water, Fire, Air and Earth are one

Freedom
fooling yourself boy
If you're having it on
it's a dream girl
Freedom
Freedom
I don't want you abusing freedom man
Let the people free
Don't let children wear masks
faces of grown up old men
Let the people dance around
Let the people decide
Let the people be themselves

Freedom
Is a dream
Freedom exists in ancient places

Where the nymph shares what she gets
Where the muse appeals to the season
Where Water, Fire, Air and Earth are one

In Paradise...

Thursday, June 24, 2004

The Long Road

As the darkness spread out
and the light hid behind the mountains
an instantaneous reflection on the past
forced reconsideration.

And there in the darkness
he saw something shining
yes.. yes.. yes.. it was a crown
he reached out to grab it
when thunder struck him
and pushed him back

A dark eyed figured appeared
and his voice was filled with thunder
"What do you want, you blasphemer?
You denounced us long ago
with ideas of your death
and choices of slavery"

It was his old self
the one he drowned
the one he sacrificed
the one he announced
as sinner

"I came to claim back what's mine
I want back the kingdom I burned
in the fires of hatred and arrogance"

"And what did you learn during your exile
Oh mortal man, you chose death over life
How can you now convince the opposite?"

It was a long time ago since the man
had visited the planes of darkness and light
The last time he went there he had brought
a visitor with him, but then the visitor was attacked
and he declared war upon his kindred
but his strength now was calm and mature

"I learned what happens
when one submits to slavery
I tasted slavery for three years
I drowned in death and life
I met the loving syndrome
I learned how to smile and how to cry
I learned how to feel and bleed
for things that have real meaning
In this kingdom though
I gained the sinner's mark
Still, I would do it all over again
and perhaps in a more offensive way!

Now my exile period is over
I want what's mine,
and I will get it.
And you can't hurt or fight me anymore
by attacking someone dear to me.
Here I stand with my new made sword
all alone, with no one else around me
threatened to be killed by you

No tricks, no games!
I have come back to this land
and found it darker
and found it filled with sickness
filled with hatred and hypocrisy!

Where are the towers of observation?
Where are my two white towers of magic?
Where are my pillars of existence?
Where are my books of knowledge?
Where is my life long work?
All burned down in the fire of arrogance

You threatened my people so I left
and you didn't waste time, did you?
You destroyed all that infested magic
all that was mystic and beautiful"

His divine, enlightened furry roared.
Now rested, now calm and sure
he looked straight in the eye
the other side of his own self
who stayed behind and corrupted
his holy empire with twisted thoughts
of delusion and ambition.

He drew out his sword
and waited for a response.
The son of the sun and the moon
was back to claim his throne,
but the son of Nimbiru and Deimos
was sitting on this throne
bleeding darkness from his wounds,
wounds he caused on himself.

"Stand up and fight me
and get off my throne!
I will not spare your life this time
you have long since fed
this kingdom's weaknesses!"

The pretender opened his blood red eyes
and with his black snake-like tongue
he started throwing poisonous words
filled with bitterness and hatred
for unexpected light, coming out of nowhere.

"You left this kingdom,
you unbundled your kind
you spilled your blood for someone else
than us, your own kindred
You raised your sword against us
when we tried to help you
to drive this visitor away from you
you cannot fight a war you cannot win
and especially not alone.

After you left, I had to swallow the pain
I was left behind to push the blade deeper to my body
I was left behind all alone to fight the demons
that you imprisoned in our dungeons.

You want back the throne?
Be my guest. How long will you stay this time
before you abandon us again?"

Excuses, lies, deceit, illusions, delusions
this was now the face of his old kingdom
these were now the ways of the law here.

"I came back, not because I had to
but because I chose to. As far as you live
people around me will suffer, this kingdom
must be cleansed.

I left yes, it was not my choice,
my people exiled me,
I went through a lot
and those who helped me
were awarded with pain and death

That is your work Azrael,
angel of revenge, ruling
in a kingdom of wisdom and mystic
I left to see what's behind the moon
and you made this place darker
and almost dead, like hell
I will not allow this to go on!

I've send away too many people
to back off now, this is the end of it
right here, right now, today, this night"

Azrael lifted his hating gaze
and stood up in his magnificent
dark and sinful glory
an amazing sight indeed
but filled with blood and hatred

"So be it Phoenix,
you think you've risen
from the ashes
you think you will be victorious
but even if you win tonight
I will always be there
waiting, in the murdering silence
for the opportunity, for the moment
when you let your guard down"

And the two bodies came one
in a blow of fire and ice
every spell ever cast was used
every sword blow tore flesh
every eye stare filled with lightning.

The battle is to continue
for 2 days and 2 nights
and may the son of the sun be king again
or this kingdom is left unprotected
to the real true enemy
who waits and reorganizes
and keeps coming closer
ever since the foundations of this palace.

A new Persian monstrosity
a new invasion of gods of the unknown
this battle is to conjure the outcome of the next
the new day, the new dawn will be
either covered with dark red blood
or blue crystal clear skied harmony.

The outcome is yet to be defined...
Let us wait in the waiting area now.

Monday, June 14, 2004

King of Nothing

Oh king of kings
and leader of armies
Oh hero wonnabie
glorious charade
buttoning desires
hatred parade,
you just found out today
how weak you truly are.

A bag filled with air, your spirit
and a sack filled with rocks, your gold.
It felt really bad to know how bad he was.
He took his words back
instead of striking the nerve of the woman
and she simply told him the truth
"You are a king of nothing"

Friday, June 11, 2004

Sun Lion

Do you see the Lion?
Carefull it bites
and it's teeth are deadly...

It runs deep into the woods
and sunbathes every day at noon
Do you want to see it hiss the moon?
It stalks under the stars praying for food
Waiting for those who get attracted by it
it first smiles than shows it teeth
and with a blasting moove your in its jaws
green eyed and thirsty for change
The lion lays on its hideout, waiting for your call

Advance forth...

Fake Messiah...

Why do you see me as your messiah?
Why do you need somebody to save you?
Poetry is eternal and can survive a holocaust
But I can't.

Words hurt
Words heal
Words are never real
Words of hate
Words of rage
you can strike a deal
with the devil & remember
the faithful agony of lust

I can't save you
I can't save myself
I can't save an ant
I can't save at all
I don't know how to save
I can't save you.