Sunday, July 11, 2004

Monsters...

Danger's what I came for
on this mountain up again
seeking a delusion charade
a saddle on my horse
and a bag full of gold
I don't need another friend
I'm sick of my own skin
I'm out the door again

Time to feed the monsters
I don't need another friend
Eyes on what I'm after
Eyes on what I want
Time to feed the monsters
I don't need another friend

Time to feed the monsters now
I don't need another friend to help!
Time to feed the monster in me
I don't need another dad
To make me sick of him

Lust

Lust
Please, let me have some

Lust
Thirst
Please, let me have some

Lust
Thirst
Hunger
Please, let me have some

Lust
Thirst
Hunger
Obsession
Please, let me have some

Lust
Thirst
hunger
Obsession
Self-distraction
Please, let me have some

A healthy child appears and asks
"Have some what?"

Saturday, July 10, 2004

Sacrifice

A sacrifice
noone must know about
A show of power
"When the new god walks on the earth
each time he casts a spell
he looses from his life"

That were the words of the messenger
"Do you want the power?" she asked
Only three times though/the third would be your death

And so a new god rose
and as with all gods
he was hated and kicked out
and has got power for one more...

Believe me not
I am another nothing
just like all of us

Thursday, July 08, 2004

Another Story

The king wearing his crown
continued parading in his old kingdom
Azrael was now banished
and the offspring of the demon were slain.

He walked into the palace halls
escorted by his companions
the poet, the warrior, the observer and a child
he then stopped, he was there
and what he saw
made him
for the first time
since his return
feel unsure and frightened

He was in the throne room.
There were three thrones now
there where once was only one
One was black,
one was red
and the center one
was golden..
He could clearly rememember
the golden one and the black one
both were raised and painted thus
after his release from the dungeons of his father
but what was the red throne?

The child came forward to speak
"Oh king, you have gone
for a very long time
your mind now is weak
and remembers not
what happened the last days
before you left
but let me remind you if you wish.

You remember only two thrones
but the truth is that before you left
you burned both thrones in fire
and left a red one in stead
as a decleration, that you are death.

Now death has renounced you
from his son, and you are to live
without his shadow."

The king kneeled on the floor
moving his head left and right
whispering
"I left because death
threatened the ones that followed me
I left because death
stole every diamond and pearl I found
I left... and now I am back
to see this?"

On the three thrones
he saw the dead bodies
of the once powerful
king, his queen and their son.

Fire was burning in his chest
anger and wrath
he screamed to himself
and run out the door
to his garden
"The flowers of life
they must be still alive!"

But the garden was burned
and no trace of beauty was left behind
"Who burned... who did this?"
"You did... before you left..."

His silver hair turned to white
and his eyes became smaller
their dark black colour
faded into gray
He was tired
tired of it all
tired of fighting
for no reason
for a change
that's not to come
for a kingdom
that doesn't want to survive

"This is not fair,
all my hopes
all my energy
all my time
all my efforts
were thrown upon this garden
and all are now burned..."

The observer came forth
to remind him with his wisdom
"Do not worry sire,
you have secured
ones safety
all those who..."

"Shut up!" he roared
"Shut up... just shut .. up
who's security did I assure?
I send them back to hell
and that's supposed to secure them?
Is that how I was to protect them?
I invited them all in this kingdom
to protect and shelter them
and now they are safe in excile?
It's wrong..it's all wrong"

And with those troubled thoughts
he whispered
"So much to reform, in so little time
so little time of peace left
just days till the great war breaks up
what..will..I..do?"

Another perfect circle.../Questions to answers/to questions back again//

Tuesday, July 06, 2004

Red Star

Gray clouds, amongst my people
a ray of golden light sends hope to them
for my secret but still glorious return
Gray clouds, amongst my people

What face shall I wear?
What attitude should I use?
What colors should my mask have?

Red star
rising in an infant manner
Red star
rising from the blue sea

Hold grip
tighten the grip
lighten your mind
strengthen your kind

Will they accept their old sire with gray hair on his head?
Will they deny the words of a once corrupted slayer?
Will they propose a new ideal to follow and a new god to trust?

They will subdue,
either with the sword
or with the tenderness of a mother...
They will subdue

Oh father!
May I please avoid this bitter cup?

Saturday, July 03, 2004

Ranting...

Startled
sudden embrace of pain
a childish dream
something
something
is waiting around the corner
no peace
no silence
just
a few
moments
alone
me
and
truth
and then all
colors fade away
and
the movie
is once
again in
black
&
white...


Such a mess...

Friday, July 02, 2004

Odysseus

Seeing with eyes that are not real
Listening with ears that are not real
Fighting with weapons that are not real
The ether summons you tonight
calling you in the arena to fight
the caged beasts that reason death
mutant snakes jeopardize the balance.

Mystified by the view of waterfalls
my blood is mixed with salt
a new flower spider webs its way up
the pressure and the responsibilities
of a long lost youth time, racing in time.
Do you feel old enough to challenge me?

The smoke of the burnt cigarette
creates a fog that consumes ideals
a war-cry echoing through the centuries
a number, three hundred, fought for you
they fell to the last when they could've won
a Persian threat, a lion king dies
and civilization endures the destruction
"Oh stranger, go and tell the Spartans
that we lay here dead saluting to the centuries
faithful to our promise and our laws
of glory and sacrifice for freedom"

Come now, this is the altered reality
no reasons and no laws in immortality
no life and death, here, this moment
is recurring time and time again
till god dies and the ice caps melt
till the sun burns out and
till the moon falls from the sky.

And the Siren is still there
on the rocks, of the island
beckoning, offering a solution
"Come now stranger, come
lay down, on this beach
there is no reason to fight
no prey to hunt upon
no god to believe in
come now stranger, come"

He picked up his sword
sealed his ears with wax
and sailed away
whispering in pain
"I need to get to Ithaca
I need to get to Ithaca
I have to get to Ithaca
nothing will stop me now"

The tragic story of Odysseus
reflecting on my life,
an endless journey
trying desperately to be free
from the gods' curse
that befell on me for my arrogance
trying to find the way home
fighting with the waves of madness
My son grows old and has a beard now
my wife is under siege by suitors
and I am sealed in the isle of Calypso
Oh Hermes order the witch of rage
to set me free...

I need to get to Ithaca
I need to get back home
just once, before my eyes
are sealed with sand...

Death Mask

It seems impossible to outstand, oh night
Its all is a fragile part of me, shown in the day,
its tears and screams and blood
the howling of the wolves
a corner in the desert,
a cave in the green mountain
this world is a cage
and we are all alone dancing
in our prison, thinking we are happy
thinking we are content

But when the night covers our faces
and we have no need of wearing masks
we show our true face, a face we avoid
looking at the mirror, a sad and weary face

The wrinkles exist from birth
it's just too much, too much
your cruel life was filled with fear
and now subsequently, you drown
following the natural flow of your evolution.

Death, will save you
or condemn you...

Thursday, July 01, 2004

Azrael's Words

The knot was still not solved
A different kind of pain
was reforming
"I am forlorn"

He sat down on his throne
thinking, why he came back
in the land were noone
will ever thank him.

He came back
to find the deity
that has now abandoned him.

He sadly stood up
and called upon his guards
"Guards... seal the gates
nothing and noone
will ever get in here
Enough of treason
enough of Trojan horses
Seal the gates..."

Walking down the road
he saw the burned
black and white towers
again he ordered
"Tear them down
and rebuild libraries
magic is of no use now
there's noone to charm on"

At the central square
a a white marble statue
of a Pegasus and a unicorn
stood there in all its excellence.
"Take this statue...
and hide it in the dungeons
I cannot destroy that
but I will not keep it here
the unicorn's horn
burns deep down
and it tries to split me in two"

Azrael appeared
"You know that this is no way out
You know that your wings will break
by the same people that healed them
Don't you?"

"I know Azrael
I know, I always knew
Its just words..."

Pretenders

In the beginning
there were stars
and suns around us
as the scale advanced
and the story got longer
tragedy and lyricism
demanded death
A fight at the eating place
a dollar stuck on the wall
mobile phones burning
and white boxes talking

Pretenders, pretenders
why have you come?
This is my land
This is my home
Do what you want outside my walls
but never do come inside or close
my darkness will subside you
and what you're trying to steal
is not mine to steal from

Curses, corpses, blood
chaos, images in silence
a river filled with floating
dead beasts, and fish
this shall be your future
if you try...