Monday, April 18, 2005

I Swore i'd Never Care...

Tell me girl
what's more important
Is it love and lust
or compassion and trust?

Why do I even bother?
Why do I even care?
I swore I'd never hold her
I swore I wouldn't dare

Take it as it really is
join the circle of totality
You left me here single
singing to the star's mortality

Why do I even bother?
Why do I even care?
I swore I'd never hold her
I swore I wouldn't dare

I loved the lies
you lied so clear
I stained my heart
with a purple tear

I craved for change
and wrath became revenge
I stole the sun
and gave you the moon

All I got is secrets
All I received is pictures
Where are your words?
Where is your admiration?

Why do I even bother?
Why do I even care?
I swore I'd never hold her
I swore I wouldn't dare
I swore I'd never care

But I did...

Hearts painted black

A little black book
with black empty pages
our hearts are charcoal
no fire can burn

A fireman is needed
to blast a dynamite
people will never know
how it feels inside

Empty heads and broken bones
crashed skulls and misplaced jaws
Hatred against all, we are troops
feeling like killing pigeons of peace

Ignorance is a bliss for those...

Saturday, April 16, 2005

Oh father...

How is it possible
that gold and slilver
gets to turn to gray
by a single phone call
from home?

How is it possible
that the best strategies
and the most beautiful spells
get to be blown up
by the laws of father and mother?

How is it possible
for a sunny day
that signes a change
be corrupted by a gray fog
by just the pressure of the father?


"Maybe you should kill your father!"

"Kill my father? Grow up right now
and get back to the fight..."

Storm of troubles

I need them to hear
I need them to feel
I need them to taste
I need them to embrace
the truth, the lie, their life

I escaped and run into the forest
the little wolf run next to me
all those ideals were forgotten
in the storm of troubles and distress

I changed my name
I changed myself
I changed my birth
I changed my life
I changed my death

An orgy of wrath and hate
a troubled sence of bitterness
and the taste of relief as this all ends
and it ends with my entrance
to the kingdom of my father
with a knife on my hand

Perpetual Dreams

I love the dark
your hideous form
is never black
and your grayblue eyes
sparkle as a volcano's heart

If my sun and moon betrays me
I will be dead... for good... for ever
If my stars and comets light out
I will be lost... for good ... for ever

Perpetual dreams in a drunk-driven sleep
and we lived like lions
and died like sheep.

I love the dark
moving stealthly
like a shark
and your faceless disguise
is just another mask in my pocket

Saturday, March 19, 2005

Who am I?

"Who are you?" the little child asked?

"Who am I?

I am just a fresh toxicant morning breeze
A strange visitor from another place
The son of my mother and my father
A careless lost child
A mindless sad poet
The Emperor of Pigs
A fallen elder God
A sinful Messiah

Who am I?
I am your guardian night angel..."

Wednesday, January 26, 2005

Dreams

Is a void at heart, the same as a monster's
Is the sorrow-like everyday awakening
a decleration of illness in autumn relief?
A decision is always brighter than the lust.
But sulvation hides where rivers start
and where mountains lie, a cottage
surrounded by snow
next to a striking waterfall
behind a 5 cm thick window
sitting next to a fireplace
the flames will show you the way
to fill your heart with warmth again

Partisan

Ecstatic rumours of my comming
fearsome voices behind closed doors
in a narrow corner i stand
watching with a bleeding heartache

My private secret war
could finish any time i want
Would they wish the death of spirituality?

Ecstatic hisses within the wall
smell of rain, I'm airborne
I close my eyes, in vain
and wake up on clouds
a winter-illusioned funeral.

My private secret war
would finish every time I want
Unless they wish the death of spirituality

Monday, December 13, 2004

Trying...

Talking to the moon
as the waters reflect images of you
in vain... you try to wake up at noon
to have breakfast and wear a smile

Trying not to die
Hiding behind this smile
Trying not to cry
Hiding behind a fake smile

I believe we're just passing by
avoiding to grasp this world's vague beauty
I believe in these swift minutes through life
we're lost in radiant pools of light

Oh... don't cry...
Son... It's just another dream
That's all...
Wake up now...
Forget them all...

The strongest heart
is that made of stone
The harshest reason
subsides to treason

Trying not to die
Hiding behind this smile
Trying not to cry
Hiding behind a fake smile

Thursday, November 25, 2004

Memories

Damaged ego of a 12 year old daugher
previous life in Egypt,
betrayed my pharao for the throne
became a minoan lord
died and came back
but darkness still surrounded me

Ill omens followed me birth
and my repeated entrance to this world
is just another excuse to thrive for power
and lust for matter conquered lands
and lived the life of a king
but darkness still surounded me

I kissed my mother and received my father's blessing
I shot my horse down and rode my car north
my bizzare happyness was kinda thrilling
the gods were generous this time
but darkness still surrounded me

And every night
when the hallow voices got stronger
and my inner strength grew weaker
I sought redemtion in bloody caves
and drunk the water of golden fountains
but still the darknes surrounded me

I sought shelter under the wings of angels
felt like a child again, told and heard stories
I kissed and hugged the darkness away
I got my money's worth of tears and smiles
but still death was all around me

I had a horse, strong and wild
and had wings on its back
and I could ride it and fly to Olympus.
Companion to many uneasy tasks and burdens
but death gasped it and painted it gray
because death still was all around me

Because my eyes are black at day and red at night
because my voice is rising high and flattens low
because my movement will suffocate you
because my look will drink your soul
because my soul is dark and white at the same time
because I am Death, his son and his prophet.

Thursday, November 11, 2004

Oh Gods

Child, lets walk in the wasteland
wine and beer, honey and milk
forbidden fruits, sacrilege
religious whores, killers, rapists

Reamer of souls,
hollow narrow-headed puppets
dancing in a war zone
crippled, dazed
confused

Oh gods,
blessed be your divine light
it burned down my enemies
it also burned my eyes

Oh gods,
blessed be your friendly face
it kept me company in the dark
it also killed my best friend's cat

The riper reptile draws now near
it has a yellow smile, black tar teeth
and his eyes are stoned red
watch him waver from his course
he came to feed, his lustful soul
and the gods vanish once again
leaving you alone with unannounced guests
naked to face the fury of the darkness
the nightmare has just begun...

Sunday, October 31, 2004

....

Why...
do you
mess
up with
my life...

Can't I
be free
from your
chain

Can't I
be free
to live?

Long time siege
filled the glass
all it remains now
is a small drop
to overflow
and the reaction
will be tnt...

Tuesday, October 12, 2004

Blur Vision

Mindless night
Blur vision
colorless vision
black & white

Let's write a tragedy script
to perform in our own theatre
monitoring perhaps
we could summon more
performers to our show
it will be unique
it will be surreal
it will be unreal
it will be my death

Monday, October 11, 2004

Railroad Ranting...

Sunday afternoon
and the cold gaze
remains unchanged
soft winter sent
nothing changes
sitting on a bench
looking through the fog
up to the hungry stars
blood is made to be spilled
an unannounced guess
expelled from the old times
good times, bad times
all the same unworthy of repetition
a summoning of brother poets
alcohol and tobacco
high on nicotine
bronze echoed voice
breaks the thin silence
a megera, a song, tartarian calling
people need doubts to feed their hearts
their selves the most precious thing
their feelings slaughtered for fake dreams
their innocence stolen from their elders
self-centric bastards looking for salvation
nothing changes
nothing changes
its all is it has always been
high on tobacco
more alcohol
more drugs
expenditure and waste
care to run old alone?
care to kiss the dragon's flame?
care to puke your guts every morning?
nothing changes
just us being high
just us being low
us simple human beings
that craved to be gods
that aimed for something impossible
to live until the day we die
but lets return to reality
we'll find ourselves
in the rotten corpses
of dead animals killed
on the highway.
Bleeding isn't enough to weaken you
still envying anything and everybody
makes change seems unbearable
look in the glass ball of yours
the snowflakes have melted
and showed their true nature
cotton not snow
fake not real
and the winter
is drowning near
and the world
drifts further
away from me
and I'm glad
I'm so glad
its dark and quiet
and the long process of talking
somewhere here ends
actions lead to nowhere anyway
we are blessed to trouble our minds
with things that have no value
with things that give no value
we are blessed to recognize our curse
and the cruise ends on a deserted port
still there, on the bench
looking through the fog
to the stars, were we all truly belong
we are all truly happy and content

White Bricked Wall

It appears from the white bricked wall
trying to persuade you to give up
It assumes a new suggestion
that one last time will be enough

The lust and hunger for some death
conquers slowly the will to life
but men cannot see that death is
wrapped in a white and brown paper tilt

You need to spit blood to understand
Stay here with us, and life will be returned
Stay here amongst us, death cannot take us all
You need to feel the cold to understand

Saturday, October 02, 2004

Pandora's Box

Opened Pandora's box
saw little hope bird inside
come, come child smile
I'm here to get you out

Zeus is around watching you
He'll strike with thunder
the son's of the dark moon
son's of light reverse the process

Opened Pandora's box
swallowed hope and burped
ah what an intense feeling
evil rises from your knees

It's gonna be alright...

Friday, October 01, 2004

TNT

Blue accursed sphere of the gods...
You shall be mine...
or explode with me..
In my insane theater of tragedy
I will either devour it,
or be denied and break hell loose...

TNT...
a progressive mix of contrasting light
thank you oh death god...
for the red blinding light
thank you oh mortal god...
for this unbelievable sight

Crisis...

Once the bigger picture had to do with respect.
Now we just say bullshit to make ourselves smile.
You glad about it? I thought you would.
Hide in your pitiful lies, it means nothing anymore

May the eyes that went blind, never see the light again
May my curses never return back to me, because I do not deserve it
May you see the truth before the 5th celebration of the accursed moon.
In that noon, my friend will take me to his chariot.

Father Hades, into your hands,
I command my spirit.
Brother Charon, Thanatos,
save me, because they mock me.

My words mean nothing anymore,
are just heard or read as jokes
fragments of another long lost era
It's alright, I won't be missed for good.

Time to lie
Time to die
Time to reach up
to the sky
Time to end it all
Nobody deserves the
sacrifice of my death
Everybody is worthless
blood sucking leeches
They ask and seek and want
nobody asked once...
what do you want?

Refugee from heaven
I strolled down the road of vagueness
and thought I had a chance in life
totality a heaven of fake feelings
the truth is sealed in death
fuck you all...

Wednesday, September 29, 2004

Labyrinth of Doubt

The wind cries
following my song
the sky cries
tear-drops on the pages
of the book that I read

Do you study time?
I float in a Japanese fight
Energy flowing
a nightbird makes sounds
ghosts appear walking in the clouds
a beautiful demon appears
to tend to the deep wounds
Do you study time?

"They will never understand my child
All they do is numb and agree
so that they will not hurt you
Eager to forget they seem
A truth maniac like you, is not wanted"

Yes..
They will never understand...
Nobody ever did...
Talk and talk
like dancing sticks they all agree
its the same old recipe
A truth maniac that talks to himself

Come on...
Give me some advice...
show me how superior you think you are...
Show me how many things you know...
Show me if you are great enough to teach me...

If you are then you take over the burden
of teaching and preaching
and being the only subject to experiment on
This labyrinth seems to have no way out
I lost Arriadne's web, can't get out now...
Need wings to fly out, like Daedalus did
with his son Icarus, I'd fly to the sun too
to see how it is to fall in the void
a feeling from the ancient times
are you jealous of my myths and stories?
You got none to tell... do you... teacher my ass...

Come on...
teach me about life
teach me about death
teach me about anything you want...
but you know nothing...
all your life you lived in your shell
seeking for someone to break you out
well stay there and eat it
I'm out, you're out
Everybody's out...

Tuesday, September 21, 2004

Poems, poems, poems...

The first to gain,
the second to reign,
the third for a master,
the rest ode to disaster.

To read
to write
to love
to fight

you need beers,
you need heart
you need a human
to kill the shark
to feed your wrath

Fill the paper with words
words of your own brain sand
resonate to the astral sequence
read the stars and hear your brothers

You need cars
you need luxury
you need friends
you need creativity

Until death takes you in his chariot
think of what you leave behind
a rotten corpse full of gold and money
or a shovel filled with books to be read

Poems, poems, poems, poems
fire, water, soil, air

Resonate with the astral sequence
ask yourself for guidance
and words will be quick
coming out of nowhere
bringing you inside....

Inside the palace of property.....

Saturday, September 11, 2004

Nicotine Excess

Hurricanes hide
in my chest
ravaging
wanting for more
burning everything in their way
looking for something to put them down
nicotine painkiller

Luckily,
spitting blood
forms a solid
and considered
decision

Quit it, NOW
or die for good...

Sunday, August 29, 2004

Desert of Neglection

A family visit to the pool
a harsh dive in the water
motionless and unable to breathe
saved by a lifeguard

In sweat you wake up
To subside the nightmare
with the Muse's command
but the order is clear;
"Die"

Disappointment overcomes you
Pain touches your heart
Sadness cripples you
Millions of "why"'s and "how"'s

How is it possible for somebody
to say so many things and prove
in time the opposite
with the actions chosen to perform?

As you faint you shed a tear
for disappointment is at your side
you gave it all and was there till the end
you gave your best at it and in the end
was left alone to heal yourself.

"It was the best way"

Time to wear my mask again
and forget my dreams and nightmares
they seem to suffocate me.
They kick me in a desert of neglection
and indifference, nowhere else to be now.

Saturday, August 28, 2004

Mirror talk

Admiring the image
presented on the mirror
a reflection of s/th true
on a shinny glass

The idol is always there
infront of you, waiting
to give you advice
on your simple troubles

What advice can you get
from your own reflection?
It will surely be the opposite
of what you would have said

Thursday, August 26, 2004

A fake Odyssey

Something felt wrong
Something was not quiet right
Somethin' not so right
running in the silent night
a rough ride
a silent snake hiss
a poisonous kiss
a fake world
totality blossomed wreck
but the light now beckons
got nothing to do than to
forget the scream of the woman
that was so alone

"Hey Emperor of Pigs,
how do you like it
being truly alone
once again
with your head
stuck down
on the toilet seat??

Dispel the light
Expel the dark night
I am a knight no more
Lancelot struck again
Intentions not so clear

"Odysseus, Odysseus
you travel in the seas
to get to your Penelope
but the palace is filled with suitors
and she preferred to fuck
instead of spin her webbing thread"

Odysseus my friend
stay with Calypso
stay there in your world
this world is filled with lies
stay there and don't come back...

Wednesday, August 11, 2004

Untitled...

As the sun faded away
his face darkened
his existance was bound to change
his mask cracked wide open
sault in his wounds your actions
raven's stinch trying to be fed from him
He turned around and saw his child
He turned around and saw himself
standing there
facing the wall
numb and motionless

The child is crying,
scared and reluctant to walk again
it fell and fell anf fell and tried again and again
Those who promised to help him
now tackle him thrice in a day
spend their time and energy
trying to suck his blood
That;s what they came for
in the first place...

Even if they said the opposite

Even if they said the opposite...

The child cries
The man screams
they both fall asleep
when the sun rises
time to rest till the next night
time to rest till the next fight

You
can't
understand...

Can
You?

W. Blake

Children of future Age
reading this indignant page
know that a former time
love and tears were thought a crime

Children of future Age
reading this rewritten page
Know that once love and tears
were once thought of as crime

Today it is thought of as a myth.

Wednesday, August 04, 2004

Lies

Another lie
another promise
another tragedy
another type of pain
another shipwreck
another embarrassment
another death

and the joke is
it never happened
it was just a lie...

Oh goddess of forgiveness
wisdom and logic, Athena
how can a man be just
when
everything hammers
everyone steals
everyone nods in silence
everyone lies
everyone cries
and when you come to smile
everyone fucks you like an animal....

He is supposed to be 21 you know...
just 21...

The goddess stares back and replies...

"Because we could not find another way to get rid of him"

Sunday, July 11, 2004

Monsters...

Danger's what I came for
on this mountain up again
seeking a delusion charade
a saddle on my horse
and a bag full of gold
I don't need another friend
I'm sick of my own skin
I'm out the door again

Time to feed the monsters
I don't need another friend
Eyes on what I'm after
Eyes on what I want
Time to feed the monsters
I don't need another friend

Time to feed the monsters now
I don't need another friend to help!
Time to feed the monster in me
I don't need another dad
To make me sick of him

Lust

Lust
Please, let me have some

Lust
Thirst
Please, let me have some

Lust
Thirst
Hunger
Please, let me have some

Lust
Thirst
Hunger
Obsession
Please, let me have some

Lust
Thirst
hunger
Obsession
Self-distraction
Please, let me have some

A healthy child appears and asks
"Have some what?"

Saturday, July 10, 2004

Sacrifice

A sacrifice
noone must know about
A show of power
"When the new god walks on the earth
each time he casts a spell
he looses from his life"

That were the words of the messenger
"Do you want the power?" she asked
Only three times though/the third would be your death

And so a new god rose
and as with all gods
he was hated and kicked out
and has got power for one more...

Believe me not
I am another nothing
just like all of us

Thursday, July 08, 2004

Another Story

The king wearing his crown
continued parading in his old kingdom
Azrael was now banished
and the offspring of the demon were slain.

He walked into the palace halls
escorted by his companions
the poet, the warrior, the observer and a child
he then stopped, he was there
and what he saw
made him
for the first time
since his return
feel unsure and frightened

He was in the throne room.
There were three thrones now
there where once was only one
One was black,
one was red
and the center one
was golden..
He could clearly rememember
the golden one and the black one
both were raised and painted thus
after his release from the dungeons of his father
but what was the red throne?

The child came forward to speak
"Oh king, you have gone
for a very long time
your mind now is weak
and remembers not
what happened the last days
before you left
but let me remind you if you wish.

You remember only two thrones
but the truth is that before you left
you burned both thrones in fire
and left a red one in stead
as a decleration, that you are death.

Now death has renounced you
from his son, and you are to live
without his shadow."

The king kneeled on the floor
moving his head left and right
whispering
"I left because death
threatened the ones that followed me
I left because death
stole every diamond and pearl I found
I left... and now I am back
to see this?"

On the three thrones
he saw the dead bodies
of the once powerful
king, his queen and their son.

Fire was burning in his chest
anger and wrath
he screamed to himself
and run out the door
to his garden
"The flowers of life
they must be still alive!"

But the garden was burned
and no trace of beauty was left behind
"Who burned... who did this?"
"You did... before you left..."

His silver hair turned to white
and his eyes became smaller
their dark black colour
faded into gray
He was tired
tired of it all
tired of fighting
for no reason
for a change
that's not to come
for a kingdom
that doesn't want to survive

"This is not fair,
all my hopes
all my energy
all my time
all my efforts
were thrown upon this garden
and all are now burned..."

The observer came forth
to remind him with his wisdom
"Do not worry sire,
you have secured
ones safety
all those who..."

"Shut up!" he roared
"Shut up... just shut .. up
who's security did I assure?
I send them back to hell
and that's supposed to secure them?
Is that how I was to protect them?
I invited them all in this kingdom
to protect and shelter them
and now they are safe in excile?
It's wrong..it's all wrong"

And with those troubled thoughts
he whispered
"So much to reform, in so little time
so little time of peace left
just days till the great war breaks up
what..will..I..do?"

Another perfect circle.../Questions to answers/to questions back again//

Tuesday, July 06, 2004

Red Star

Gray clouds, amongst my people
a ray of golden light sends hope to them
for my secret but still glorious return
Gray clouds, amongst my people

What face shall I wear?
What attitude should I use?
What colors should my mask have?

Red star
rising in an infant manner
Red star
rising from the blue sea

Hold grip
tighten the grip
lighten your mind
strengthen your kind

Will they accept their old sire with gray hair on his head?
Will they deny the words of a once corrupted slayer?
Will they propose a new ideal to follow and a new god to trust?

They will subdue,
either with the sword
or with the tenderness of a mother...
They will subdue

Oh father!
May I please avoid this bitter cup?

Saturday, July 03, 2004

Ranting...

Startled
sudden embrace of pain
a childish dream
something
something
is waiting around the corner
no peace
no silence
just
a few
moments
alone
me
and
truth
and then all
colors fade away
and
the movie
is once
again in
black
&
white...


Such a mess...

Friday, July 02, 2004

Odysseus

Seeing with eyes that are not real
Listening with ears that are not real
Fighting with weapons that are not real
The ether summons you tonight
calling you in the arena to fight
the caged beasts that reason death
mutant snakes jeopardize the balance.

Mystified by the view of waterfalls
my blood is mixed with salt
a new flower spider webs its way up
the pressure and the responsibilities
of a long lost youth time, racing in time.
Do you feel old enough to challenge me?

The smoke of the burnt cigarette
creates a fog that consumes ideals
a war-cry echoing through the centuries
a number, three hundred, fought for you
they fell to the last when they could've won
a Persian threat, a lion king dies
and civilization endures the destruction
"Oh stranger, go and tell the Spartans
that we lay here dead saluting to the centuries
faithful to our promise and our laws
of glory and sacrifice for freedom"

Come now, this is the altered reality
no reasons and no laws in immortality
no life and death, here, this moment
is recurring time and time again
till god dies and the ice caps melt
till the sun burns out and
till the moon falls from the sky.

And the Siren is still there
on the rocks, of the island
beckoning, offering a solution
"Come now stranger, come
lay down, on this beach
there is no reason to fight
no prey to hunt upon
no god to believe in
come now stranger, come"

He picked up his sword
sealed his ears with wax
and sailed away
whispering in pain
"I need to get to Ithaca
I need to get to Ithaca
I have to get to Ithaca
nothing will stop me now"

The tragic story of Odysseus
reflecting on my life,
an endless journey
trying desperately to be free
from the gods' curse
that befell on me for my arrogance
trying to find the way home
fighting with the waves of madness
My son grows old and has a beard now
my wife is under siege by suitors
and I am sealed in the isle of Calypso
Oh Hermes order the witch of rage
to set me free...

I need to get to Ithaca
I need to get back home
just once, before my eyes
are sealed with sand...

Death Mask

It seems impossible to outstand, oh night
Its all is a fragile part of me, shown in the day,
its tears and screams and blood
the howling of the wolves
a corner in the desert,
a cave in the green mountain
this world is a cage
and we are all alone dancing
in our prison, thinking we are happy
thinking we are content

But when the night covers our faces
and we have no need of wearing masks
we show our true face, a face we avoid
looking at the mirror, a sad and weary face

The wrinkles exist from birth
it's just too much, too much
your cruel life was filled with fear
and now subsequently, you drown
following the natural flow of your evolution.

Death, will save you
or condemn you...

Thursday, July 01, 2004

Azrael's Words

The knot was still not solved
A different kind of pain
was reforming
"I am forlorn"

He sat down on his throne
thinking, why he came back
in the land were noone
will ever thank him.

He came back
to find the deity
that has now abandoned him.

He sadly stood up
and called upon his guards
"Guards... seal the gates
nothing and noone
will ever get in here
Enough of treason
enough of Trojan horses
Seal the gates..."

Walking down the road
he saw the burned
black and white towers
again he ordered
"Tear them down
and rebuild libraries
magic is of no use now
there's noone to charm on"

At the central square
a a white marble statue
of a Pegasus and a unicorn
stood there in all its excellence.
"Take this statue...
and hide it in the dungeons
I cannot destroy that
but I will not keep it here
the unicorn's horn
burns deep down
and it tries to split me in two"

Azrael appeared
"You know that this is no way out
You know that your wings will break
by the same people that healed them
Don't you?"

"I know Azrael
I know, I always knew
Its just words..."

Pretenders

In the beginning
there were stars
and suns around us
as the scale advanced
and the story got longer
tragedy and lyricism
demanded death
A fight at the eating place
a dollar stuck on the wall
mobile phones burning
and white boxes talking

Pretenders, pretenders
why have you come?
This is my land
This is my home
Do what you want outside my walls
but never do come inside or close
my darkness will subside you
and what you're trying to steal
is not mine to steal from

Curses, corpses, blood
chaos, images in silence
a river filled with floating
dead beasts, and fish
this shall be your future
if you try...

Wednesday, June 30, 2004

Petrified

The suitors from the lake
force a craving silence
a monumental plethora
of fools, of pretenders...

This numbness
is desperately
futile in a sarcastic
and funnier way

You know where you are?
You are in the eye of the hurricane
and you stand still, petrified
looking at things you cannot grasp

A melody you've never heard before
an image never imagined
a smell uncovers
a different kind of warmth

I call it dreams and sleep
in a June cold rainy day
all you give is excess
all you take is fear

Dreaming...

Dreams of treason
dreams of darkness
all cause a headache
when you get to wake up

Dreaming of death
fighting wrath and anger
fighting yourself
for what you are to do

Where is peace?
Where is salvation?
What is the solution?

In a labyrinth I roam
trying to find my way out
trying to find my way
lost in every dark corridor
trying to locate
an exit
a passage
to the other side
of the

Monday, June 28, 2004

Chasing Clouds Away

Outstanding the pain
waiting for cheap salvation
a ferry boat approaching
please don't chase the clouds away

A mature neglection
in the voice of the singing bird
hips and bottoms dance on court
and forgotten as always
you open the door of death

Spirit of liquid fire
please come and take me
the wound is torn apart
and bleeding,
the heeling herb
didn't last that long
please don't chase my cloud away

Sunday, June 27, 2004

Suicide...

Have you ever felt deluded?
Have you ever sensed the lie?
Have you ever seen through the truth?
Have you ever felt afraid?
Have you ever felt helpless?

!Well I haven't!

I'm a man!
I never feel afraid, or helpless.
I never get hurt or misunderstood
I punch and kick and swing around
I write songs and poems and I fake my sound
I am a liar but I am above you all.
I am arrogant and selfish and a nutcase
An you believe my lies and stories and ferrytales

The people started leaving.
The ass-clown suits us no more
But some day too soon
perhaps even tomorrow
a cross will be his new dress
and what a superstar that will make him
for a day or two, or even a month.

You insane fool,
you trusted, and trusted
and shared and loved those people
and took care of them as if they were your children
and what did you get in return?
"Uhh...what's your name again?

Humping, humming
your death is coming
zavara katranemia ,
sabra cadabra
I'm your death aura

And then you'll die,
and I'll be happy
and my rage will be rested
and I will feel content
and I will be alone
and I will start to wonder
was it worth the bloodshed?
was it all worth it?
And a dialogue
between yes and now will start
and then I'll realize
I lost what I never had
I found what I never lost
I killed what I never hated
I loved what I never killed
I preached those who never learned
I got hurt by those who never hurt me
I killed him who was the only innocent;

...mysef...

I hate being happy for no reason
I hate seeking a reason into anything
I hate hating, but I hate not hating too
I hate confusion, but I love to create it
What am I?

Tides of Creation

Ghosts and devils
surrounded the couple
fighting with swords
and wooden staffs
life fighting death
love fighting hatred
son fighting father
light fighting darkness
accompanied by a requiem
a symphony of thunder
and explosion.

"You cannot win the Phoenix
I forced you to live alone
I exiled you to the dark land
I killed your friends and lovers
I split you to pieces
You cannot win the Phoenix"

And Azrael disappeared.

He placed his sword
back to his golden belt
he took the grown
from the wet ground
and cleaned it.

He kept on marching
until he reached the dungeons
where he heart loud desperate cries
He unlocked the door
and saw a young boy
embracing his pillow
crying, begging for help

"Calm down boy
the king is here to set you free"

The boy stopped
looked him in the eye
with this familiar look
of a temptation to form words
never heard before spoken
in this world

"Thy, free me?
Oh king thy comst in glory
Have thou ever considered
who has the need of being saved?"

"Who are you?"
asked the king

"I am the tides of creation
I am the poet within this kingdom
You used me to express the hatred
you used me to convince the righteous"

The king embraced the boy
and in a moment they became one.
The king found another lost place
of his old self, and felt now more complete

Saturday, June 26, 2004

Paradise & Freedom

Where the nymph shares what she gets
Where the muse appeals to the season
Where Water, Fire, Air and Earth are one

Freedom
fooling yourself boy
If you're having it on
it's a dream girl
Freedom
Freedom
I don't want you abusing freedom man
Let the people free
Don't let children wear masks
faces of grown up old men
Let the people dance around
Let the people decide
Let the people be themselves

Freedom
Is a dream
Freedom exists in ancient places

Where the nymph shares what she gets
Where the muse appeals to the season
Where Water, Fire, Air and Earth are one

In Paradise...

Thursday, June 24, 2004

The Long Road

As the darkness spread out
and the light hid behind the mountains
an instantaneous reflection on the past
forced reconsideration.

And there in the darkness
he saw something shining
yes.. yes.. yes.. it was a crown
he reached out to grab it
when thunder struck him
and pushed him back

A dark eyed figured appeared
and his voice was filled with thunder
"What do you want, you blasphemer?
You denounced us long ago
with ideas of your death
and choices of slavery"

It was his old self
the one he drowned
the one he sacrificed
the one he announced
as sinner

"I came to claim back what's mine
I want back the kingdom I burned
in the fires of hatred and arrogance"

"And what did you learn during your exile
Oh mortal man, you chose death over life
How can you now convince the opposite?"

It was a long time ago since the man
had visited the planes of darkness and light
The last time he went there he had brought
a visitor with him, but then the visitor was attacked
and he declared war upon his kindred
but his strength now was calm and mature

"I learned what happens
when one submits to slavery
I tasted slavery for three years
I drowned in death and life
I met the loving syndrome
I learned how to smile and how to cry
I learned how to feel and bleed
for things that have real meaning
In this kingdom though
I gained the sinner's mark
Still, I would do it all over again
and perhaps in a more offensive way!

Now my exile period is over
I want what's mine,
and I will get it.
And you can't hurt or fight me anymore
by attacking someone dear to me.
Here I stand with my new made sword
all alone, with no one else around me
threatened to be killed by you

No tricks, no games!
I have come back to this land
and found it darker
and found it filled with sickness
filled with hatred and hypocrisy!

Where are the towers of observation?
Where are my two white towers of magic?
Where are my pillars of existence?
Where are my books of knowledge?
Where is my life long work?
All burned down in the fire of arrogance

You threatened my people so I left
and you didn't waste time, did you?
You destroyed all that infested magic
all that was mystic and beautiful"

His divine, enlightened furry roared.
Now rested, now calm and sure
he looked straight in the eye
the other side of his own self
who stayed behind and corrupted
his holy empire with twisted thoughts
of delusion and ambition.

He drew out his sword
and waited for a response.
The son of the sun and the moon
was back to claim his throne,
but the son of Nimbiru and Deimos
was sitting on this throne
bleeding darkness from his wounds,
wounds he caused on himself.

"Stand up and fight me
and get off my throne!
I will not spare your life this time
you have long since fed
this kingdom's weaknesses!"

The pretender opened his blood red eyes
and with his black snake-like tongue
he started throwing poisonous words
filled with bitterness and hatred
for unexpected light, coming out of nowhere.

"You left this kingdom,
you unbundled your kind
you spilled your blood for someone else
than us, your own kindred
You raised your sword against us
when we tried to help you
to drive this visitor away from you
you cannot fight a war you cannot win
and especially not alone.

After you left, I had to swallow the pain
I was left behind to push the blade deeper to my body
I was left behind all alone to fight the demons
that you imprisoned in our dungeons.

You want back the throne?
Be my guest. How long will you stay this time
before you abandon us again?"

Excuses, lies, deceit, illusions, delusions
this was now the face of his old kingdom
these were now the ways of the law here.

"I came back, not because I had to
but because I chose to. As far as you live
people around me will suffer, this kingdom
must be cleansed.

I left yes, it was not my choice,
my people exiled me,
I went through a lot
and those who helped me
were awarded with pain and death

That is your work Azrael,
angel of revenge, ruling
in a kingdom of wisdom and mystic
I left to see what's behind the moon
and you made this place darker
and almost dead, like hell
I will not allow this to go on!

I've send away too many people
to back off now, this is the end of it
right here, right now, today, this night"

Azrael lifted his hating gaze
and stood up in his magnificent
dark and sinful glory
an amazing sight indeed
but filled with blood and hatred

"So be it Phoenix,
you think you've risen
from the ashes
you think you will be victorious
but even if you win tonight
I will always be there
waiting, in the murdering silence
for the opportunity, for the moment
when you let your guard down"

And the two bodies came one
in a blow of fire and ice
every spell ever cast was used
every sword blow tore flesh
every eye stare filled with lightning.

The battle is to continue
for 2 days and 2 nights
and may the son of the sun be king again
or this kingdom is left unprotected
to the real true enemy
who waits and reorganizes
and keeps coming closer
ever since the foundations of this palace.

A new Persian monstrosity
a new invasion of gods of the unknown
this battle is to conjure the outcome of the next
the new day, the new dawn will be
either covered with dark red blood
or blue crystal clear skied harmony.

The outcome is yet to be defined...
Let us wait in the waiting area now.

Monday, June 14, 2004

King of Nothing

Oh king of kings
and leader of armies
Oh hero wonnabie
glorious charade
buttoning desires
hatred parade,
you just found out today
how weak you truly are.

A bag filled with air, your spirit
and a sack filled with rocks, your gold.
It felt really bad to know how bad he was.
He took his words back
instead of striking the nerve of the woman
and she simply told him the truth
"You are a king of nothing"

Friday, June 11, 2004

Sun Lion

Do you see the Lion?
Carefull it bites
and it's teeth are deadly...

It runs deep into the woods
and sunbathes every day at noon
Do you want to see it hiss the moon?
It stalks under the stars praying for food
Waiting for those who get attracted by it
it first smiles than shows it teeth
and with a blasting moove your in its jaws
green eyed and thirsty for change
The lion lays on its hideout, waiting for your call

Advance forth...

Fake Messiah...

Why do you see me as your messiah?
Why do you need somebody to save you?
Poetry is eternal and can survive a holocaust
But I can't.

Words hurt
Words heal
Words are never real
Words of hate
Words of rage
you can strike a deal
with the devil & remember
the faithful agony of lust

I can't save you
I can't save myself
I can't save an ant
I can't save at all
I don't know how to save
I can't save you.

Sunday, May 30, 2004

Alexander

Lightning struck the temple of the goddess
and thee polar stars fell on the horizon line
the sage screamed "The time has come"
The signs were all in place, the time has come

"At this day a child has been born
who will reveal the faces of the gods once again
and spread the word of humanity to the lands
of Dionysus. Child of Achilles, Child of Bacchus
the cynic gods will place a crown of horns on your head
The Lotus eaters will remember their names and homes
The Cyclops will hide in their caves
The lions will roar at the sun again
And glory is the only price to fight for"

And the years fled and a father got murdered
by the hand of a backache priestess mother
the child who was suddenly a king
dressed in black swore to avenge the death
of his ancestors in the three invasions
and there by his spear he called the land
"conquered by the spear and glory
and by the gods the king of kings will kneel to me"

He solved the Gordian knot with a single cut
He connected an isle to the mainland
He built 32 cities in 10 years as a memory
He was recognized as son of the sun-god Amon Ra - Zeus
He was the first pharaoh after years of oppression

Not even a million soldiers,
or the heat of the gedrosian desert
or the whales of the indian ocean
or the elephants of India
could stop him.

He did only one mistake
He trusted his friends
and they gave him a cup of poison.

And the sage said,
"right before the next cataclysm
the child will be revealed to you, once again.
Not to conquer or kill, not to build cities but
to unite the peoples, to overthrow the oppressors
to wear the crown of humanity for 10 minutes
call upon equality, just like then when 5.000 Greeks
married 5.000 Persian brides no difference between us all
and then to break his crown in the name of equality."


All you have to do is wait
all you have to do is trust
all you have to do is fight
all you have to do is laugh.

Inca God

Light and sun,
a pyramid in steps
a bridge to the white gods
Athulpa leader of the divine ones
you died not in vain.

The love of your bride still holds
and the omen spoke of a sacrifice
The people that lived higher
than the mountains peaks
shall be freed under my command
El Dorado's caves we marched to
and found not gold, not silver nor weapons
but a bleeding heart waiting for a remedy
a dark corner in this universe
hid the sounds of your screams
under its shrug, now escape!
And with our brown and hairy chests
we shall march under the sun again
oh brothers of the west,
victims of Atlantis,
once again the gate is opening.
Defend the post to death
for the love of life and nature.
Nothing can ever be accomplished
unless it somehow, somewhere begins.

Wednesday, May 26, 2004

Nostradamian Massacre Part II

As children we learned to engage in trust
As pubes we learned to hide and collapse
As grown-up's we learned to lie and retry

"Give not that which is holy into the dogs
neithercast ye your pearls before pigs
lest they trample them under their feet
and turn again and rend you"

That is what we have never learned,
and will not ever accept to learn.

Monday, May 24, 2004

Nostradamian Massacre

As the morning reached its peak
the angel of poetitude rised
the message must be given
clear and ductile to the world

It can't be sacrificed
for nothing and noone
sadly, its hard to believe
in things that never change

A Nostradamian prophecy
revolutionized in my mind
Seldom do we speak of life
Seldom do we hope of hope

"When twenty years of the Moon's reign shall pass,
Seven thousand more its monarchy shall hold
When the Sun has reclaimed its days left
Then shall my prophecy come true"

It's in our blood...

Saturday, May 22, 2004

Blooming Tree

Blooming tree,dried dead
naked love, tormented soul
stay alive, all by yourself
fed up with essence,
moan now with pleasure.

Lies and lawful certainties
a specified arrogant example
giving a one sided show for herself
the striking nature of woman's soul
value to nothing, nothing of value.

The handsome goose walked real tight
craving imaginary stares of admiration
beautiful soul, ugly appearance
Who would ever deal with it?

Its friends who react according to their moods?
Its loves who never existed save his thoughts?
Noone...
Destined to live alone
and to rule a kingdom
to rule his own self.
No glory, no arms, no deeds of valor
no enlightened paths to follow
Just a normal life in a normal world...
In a normal world...
where nothing ever changes,
where originality is hidden
only in children's dreams
where I am an outcast
and the goose will just
become a chicken
to be grilled
in the oven
of your
conscience...

Studying in the Dark

Heart of stone, do not shatter and bleed
Heart of steel, do not bend and break
reasonable actions are never trusted, need something true
A spontaneous moment reserving the truth of a king

"When will the storm end father?
it's been raining for like 21 days.
Where did the sun go?
have I ever actually seen the sun?"

Studying in the dark
allied with the black
death and insanity
swallowed appetites
and lust for life

You are getting out
You still have not understood
Your life's purpose to run away
or fight the dead to death

Thursday, May 20, 2004

Mother

The rose that broke in two
and gave birth to me
The olive seed that was squashed
and gave the oil for me
The stars that fell
to hide my nightmares
The tears she shed
for every night I was lost
The wounds she took
for my grave growing
The lights she offered
The sacrifices she've done
The retreats she accepted
The pain she suffered
The love she gave me
Mother...
I am sorry... but somewhere in there
there is still a human soul left
to worship and love you
as a son should
I just wished I was a normal fool
to say thank you just for once
before I left you to cry again for me

Father

You and I are so alike
We both destroyed the lives
of those who loved us.
Idol and inspiration
pure point of deceit
Your love is a boundary
to my evolution
You kill me with each blink
You kill me with your love
You kill me with your careing
You suffocate me in your protection
and your visions, visions brought to me from you
visions you should bring to reality and not me.
Father....
Although a son should not truly love his father
I stand again, at the verdge of death and solitude
crying out to you for the first and last time
"Let me breathe"
Comfusion during thoughts of hate
Comfusion during words of love
I hate to be the son of a hero
I hate to be the son of a star

American Night

Dreams winding, blood
spare our lives claim our land
yes master of disaster
give us blood
yes master, uncle Sam
give us some

Too sure for yourself you are
Do you know where you march?
Death will come,
when you enter their land
the red button will be pressed
with brains and blood you are obsessed

No Gods have mercy,
they don't know
what they fight for
neither side

Uncle Sam, Uncle Sam
common, give us some
blood blood blood
Yes master, yes master
crimson criminal, disaster
blood blood blood

The game of the fools
they play
Gods have mercy on them
they are just family men
Why should they die?

Simple puppets grown in stone
let them live and kill their leaders
kill their leaders' masters
Not them...
Have petty on their children
Have petty on their wives

Uncle Sam, Uncle Sam
common, give us some
blood blood blood
Yes master, yes master
crimson criminal, disaster
blood blood blood

Too soon to leave this world
Too tired to shelter them from the bombs
Get out fight your leaders..all of you
There name is death
they play the game of money
you fight for family and country
they tell you so
yet you fight for their masters

Get back.....
Fly away....

No more guns and bloodshed
All of you are wrong
and so right...

So fight..and die...

We are all going to get in this mess anyway
My land is going to rise in number four
War, war, war cannot be avoided

Uncle Sam, Uncle Sam
common, give us some
blood blood blood
Yes master, yes master
crimson criminal, disaster
blood blood blood

Still..as the lunas say
You can't make an omelet
without breaking some eggs

Fools.....

Saturday, May 15, 2004

Ode of Odes

Ode of odes
watching from the back rows
Got the fever
Give me some fever
Everybody loves the fever
It's all a fever
And you can sit
Next to the gleaming fire
sitting there all by yourself
when everybody's dancing
you cannot help yourself
Come on hands
you got strength
You know I can see you grow child
You know I can shoot you down child
I can rip you, I can strip you, I can tease you
and all that you'll think about is dancing

Tease me,
taunt me,
kill me,
strike my nerves, fast
never obtain a chance


"Pendulum of decision
Pendulum of life
all you need, precision
all you need is time"

Monday, May 10, 2004

Tear Drops

Tear...Drop...Dear...Stop
Drop...Tear...Stop...Dear
Dear...Stop...Tear...Drop
Stop...Dear...Drop...Tear

Couldn't even manage to
change your own world
by simply killing yourself
you let the army-man win

Couldn't simply let the blood flow
Couldn't simply let the bullet shot
Couldn't let the poor child grow
Couldn't cut the Gordian knot

Useless.........Meaningless...Lifeless.........Actionless.....
Meaningless...Useless.........Actionless.....Lifeless.........
Lifeless.........Actionless.....Useless.........Meaningless...
Actionless.....Lifeless.........Meaningless...Useless.........

Saturday, May 08, 2004

Holy War

Kindred of the lost ages,
come, its time has come
I know It won't be an easy ride
take out of the old chests
the magic stones
carve your bodies
with the blue colour of war
wear your boots and your armour
and come out, come out
where ever you are.

Under the octagon star
to meet and drink
to fiest and kill each other
be crazed, enraged, mistreated
children of the night
the time has come
to dive in the blood of children
and their fathers and their mothers
to cry for their loss.

And I will be dancing
over your dead bodies
in a fiest of blood,
Death's day has come
for either you or us or me

The holy martyrs of life
will enjoy a painful death
Enjoy your pettiful remorse.

He is near, and I can't hold him back any longer
The maidens' names will be called
one by one to be thrown in the iron maiden's hatch
it's time for blood...

Give me a resting place,
this is way above me to fight
this is not my problem to deal with
Why didn't you let me die?

It was so easy, a simple trigger
Oh how I wish I could hear the song
the last song of the last bird
How I wish I could feel the warmth of the last kiss

It's drawing nearer...
It's sences grow keener...

And your mind is about to explode
The tragedy you've built is becomming real
and you are dead, before you even know it

It's gone, I tried, for long
It's gone, I tried, for long...

Friday, May 07, 2004

Messed up...

Messed up, fucked up
drowning, pressure
hands tight, feet numb
darkness surrounds me
fear, panic, gasping for air
the darkness smiles,
promises kingdoms
promises titles and glory
but asks for my soul instead
Fighting, resisting for years
can't act anymore like this


Darkness smiles
and I smile back
"Come with me boy,
I'll show you your hell
this is your kingdom
it's better than your dark tower
it's filled with fire and servants"


When the abyss smiles back
who are you to say no?

Thursday, May 06, 2004

Lord of the Comedians

Thirty men and sixty two women
marching right in front of my eyes
stealing ideas and words
stealing time and space
You find yourself in
a mysteriously vague
position, pressure holds.

For an instant the sensors
pick up no vibes
Everything seems blank
lost in time and space
dwelling for a light spot
to jump in and come back to reality

Lord of the comedians!
Why have you left us
here in this place around the fire
but gave us no wood to feed it?
A comic storm appears in your eyes
stars are now square
liquid yellow on the walls
and purple haze on the windows
the light is now blue
blue for enlightenment
but out the window you know
it's still night...

And the minister's daughter smiles
and drama queen prays
but the disoriented youngster
stays disgruntled still
writing day and night
no need for sleep tonight
again

Tuesday, May 04, 2004

Shadow Dancer

Undertake the irrational duty
to smile towards darkness.
Wait, the monster's smiling back
Could it be loving and caring as a mother?

Dwelling in fields of shadows
waiting for the June to harvest smiles
Death dears running from her face
her boy is lost and the riper is laughing

A shadow dances in the edge of twilight
Stop her pain, stop her pain
I see delight, in swollen crow eyes
face, tears red as blood. She smiles!

Thoughts

See how beautiful things seem
when they are given to us freely
without having ever asked for them
See how lowly we behave
when we get things we asked for
and then want more...

Monday, May 03, 2004

What Do You Need?

Do you need a myth to live in?
Do you need a relaxed moment every day?
Do you keep faith in elder symbols?
Do you still want to please the dead?
Do you ask questions when you should answer?
Do you need a messiah?
Do you know why you live?
Do you make choices instead of choosing ways to avoid choice itself?
Do you feel sick when you wake up?
Do you know the answer?
Do you know why we all need a god to please, to hurt, to swear?

Why do you need a messiah?
Why do you need a savior?
Why can't you save yourselves?
Why can't you change?
Why do you want me to turn back two months?
Why do you need death so much?
Why do you love the past and forget the present?

Save your selves...
Don't do what I tell you
Don't do what they tell you
Just do what you want

Get up
Stand up
Look around you
Wake up...

We are all aging, growing older second by second
Do not let the instant fly away, like the last albatross
flying south for the winter. It should be yours...
Or you should fly away with him..

Dead hearts in a dead soul world
I call upon thee, light resembles darkness
in a much purer way. Oh be saved!

Sunday, May 02, 2004

Naked Mountains

Bare naked mountains
honey mouthfilled bears
caves, no fires
shallow rivers
and fish to feed with

the perfect place for
a theatrical come back?

May you fade out in a reverent dream
and wake up in a captivating movie

Thursday, April 22, 2004

Insane Comedy

Since we have baptized all of the means
within a pool of our divine semen
cloud so sweet, be my guide
to the next point of the trial.

Plato has to be refused
and man has to start saying the truth
Train, bus, car and airplane
all are now filled with sperm

trumpets echo in the third octad

Hahaha...

Come now follow me,
in the floyd sea
madness in the music
I'm ready, shoot the ball
that's all. You can now brag
that's just about all...

Remembering the words of the sinner
When in this life I was just a beginner...

Wednesday, March 10, 2004

Sleep and awake

Sleep and awake
vast dreams juelled stars
madmen hugging with ice
sounds bleeding from the guittar

The choice of remedy
the entrance to the death dream
dance on water, drown in madness

Gods bleeding while mocking their creation
and insane motivation shifted the tides up
tears mixed with blood, a discontent feeling

He brushed it all of his face with his hair and closed his eyes

Thursday, March 04, 2004

Each man can be a God

Each man can be a God.
Each man hides a God in him.
All he has to do is just look deep inside there
in the depths of both light and darkness
both arrogance and forgiveness.

Religion is just a way to
transform men into sheep
and moneyworshipers into sheperds

Tuesday, March 02, 2004

Life is easy....

The light torch
cast a spell on a firy neck
a tremling hand
a sick mind
a weary body
a nicotine smile
you are on your own
leave it on

Ripped of
burned
wipped off
life is easy
for those who are not on their own

Monday, March 01, 2004

Yesterday left us thinking
time and time again
no chance of retunring back
gratefull for what you did
and what you did not
for the future explains
what troubled you in tha past.

What can't be solved
can be simply cut
Once this boy was respected
in the radio protocol rivers
now no glimpse, no faith
and the wirdest of all feeling
sis his liking of it.

Tuesday, February 03, 2004

Run in Love

Run, run, run, run,run, run, run
back and forth,
left and right
up and down
where am I?

Between your legs
I spit my fire
Through your lips
I suck your lifeI

will make you cry
I will make you feel helpless
I will kill everything you own
I am the master of darkness
I am the azure summer lightning
quick and swift, came out of nowhere
till the tides grow weak, then I leave.

Come, come, come, come, come
chase me, catch me if you can
ghostly presence,
spring tree in your nightmares

Though your legs I fly away
between your lips I'll die dry.

Saturday, January 31, 2004

Soul

I see the eye staring
burning with its majestic fury
I'm sudently transparent
crystal clear as spring water.

Fire man, shallow soul
Fire man with your burning hand
Fire man your soul of fire
Fire man accept the fog's desire

Keep looking through your ball
oh wizzard, your crystal trickery
we fell in love to avenge your death spell
but death found us stonned and carried away

Fire man, your hallow corpse
Fire man, your burning eyes
Fire man your heart of ice
Fire man, embrace the shinny cloud's desire

Prayer

Oh great Spirit,
whose voice I hear in the winds,
And whose breath gives life to all the world,
Hear me! I am small and week, I need your strength and wisdom

Let me walk in Beauty and make my eyes never regret wtinessing
the red and purple sunset.

Make my Hands respect the treasures you invented and my ears
sharp to hear your music

Make me wise so that I may understand
the things you have taught my people

Let me learn the lessons you have hidden in every leaf and rock

I seek strength, not to be greater than my brother,
but to fight my greatest enemy; myself.

Make me always ready to come to you
with clean hands and pure soul.

So, when life fades, as the fading sunset,
my spirit may come to you without shame.

Ahoe!

Prayer to the Gods

Oh children of Achilles, Thessaly
Oh children of Odysseus, Hipperus
Oh children of Kadmus, Thebes,
we followed the crumbling worms
we chased the dream of glory
they wrote epics to honor our names
they build temples to remember us
they cherished our ideas, flaunted the daylight.

They smiled but threw snakes into our beds
they ate our women raw, and rapped our unborn infants

I forced my head to turn around once more
and look into the mystic of the past,
I saw tears and blood.
I saw the white and blue sky
I saw the calm gray waves under my temple
I saw the ancient ruins and graveyards
I was forced to wear my hood to hide my tears.

How has it come to this?
How has it come to this?
The princes now are slaves,
the kings are still forgotten
all they want to see... is our sun and sea

Oh children of Apollo,
sacred god of light, oh serpent-killer
Oh children of Zeus,
sacred god of Gods, oh father of us all
Oh children of Poseidon,
still searching for your long lost land

I invented the book
I invented the sword
I invented blood
I created water
still I have not found the cure
of this world's greatest illness;
serving an excessive lust for vengeance

Perplexed Situation

Inrush authority sleeping
feeling tired, bored
a perplexed situation emerging
need to escape once and for all....

Give me one good reason
for not to wear the black painted armor.....

Why don't you go fuck yourself?

Charade

Lunatics, beyond your humble reach
love is just another kingdom to suffer defeat from
your head explodes, once again, whispering thoughts
that'll make you cry and suffer...

Vacant halls, and blades changing your profile
rearranging sanity's purpose, locking out thunders
Humble faces, surrender to your variety of poisons
you can cause pain, when you're shivering in the cold winter night
simply adoring your unholy self pitted in hatred you scream out
on the eve of your kingdom's annual celebration
rape, and devastation

In this ground, filled with moist,
accept this hallow body
a souless carcase of a simple man
who dared to challange Gods
but not his fears, erased the sun
from his burned out brain
sorrow, and loneliness must be his ground of testing

The final cut of the devil's favorite boy movie
he reaches out the end of his mortality
accross a sea of sand into a desert storm
forming a stoned sanctuary of lies and laughter

You will not see my face on the storm,
it always snows in neverland....


Dental disability makes no differene of mental disbelief....

Friday, January 30, 2004

Fake Words...

The time that demons become angels
and angels will try to kill their master
is truly close. Children of the Gods or not
we all try to kill our father
become Dionysus, the eternal son

My life a battle to earn back my kingdom
a tale so long that's hard to tell.
My road leads to darkness,
have got to be alone now.

You ask me of things you already know the answer....
I am as fake as everybody else in this shit hole...

Sorry.... I'll go kill myself now,
perhaps something better will surface.

I understand brother,
why you chose to flee
delete your words and name
it's so obvious, so hard though to explain.

My time will come as well,
soon... real soon...

Doesn't matter how many dreams I see
I won't offer my pain to anyone, even if it's fake as me.

Monday, January 19, 2004

Art's Jester

Art is a mirror;
When you descend
through it's field
you only see what
you can and want to see,
you only feel what
you can and want to see;
The reflection of your own self

Recreation, resumption
a new suggestion
police in my doorstep
dragging the child to a cell.

Art, filling chests with gold
Art, making women open their legs
Art, creating fake heroes
Art, everybody joins...


Everybody becomes an artist... for the wrong reasons...

Tuesday, January 06, 2004

Inevitable fakness...

An epic tale was written
to memorize her death
but as everything in my world
even her death was fake

The two year sorrow
the suicidal activities
all in the name of her loss
were done in vain

This world is sick
I'm just an unlucky soul
a piece of wood
floating in a stormy sea
of this giant sickness

How can I stay away from the dark
it's the only thing that has never lied to me...

Wednesday, December 10, 2003

Heartache

Will someone give me what I plead for?
Will someone rip my heart out?
Will someone or somebody find a way?
Will someone please, please finish me?

You are my food, my air, my water and soil
How can I possibly eat or breath you
how can I possibly drink or feel you
when I don't know how to touch you?
Will someone please, please finish me?

I don't know anything for sure any more.
I'm tired of looking, tired of seeking
It all seems so incomplete so strange
Perhaps death someday will show me the way out...

Wings of Leather

Winds that freeze, winds that burn
He brushed away his hair from his face
the pale moon strengthened his aura
and his red angered face seemed bronze

He turned the other way,
shook his head away with disgust
flapped his wings wide open
dark, hallow, soulless, leather shinning
storming like a bat in motion
wraps himself into his wings and
then raises one hand as to command
whereas the floor cracks and splits in two;
a canyon of lava, fire and ice together
stares at the ground melting
so beautiful, orange and gold,

velvet-blue pyre

"Time to rest"
he whispered to himself
"Forever"

Twenty-two minutes past midnight
the canyon disappeared
the crack is sealed
and amidst the irritating unbreakable monotony
only one being seems to be smiling in relief
It is sealed deep down within the planet's core,
sleeping...


Will you ever dare to wake him up?

Monday, November 24, 2003

Solution

The wounds of the heart
are like the faint stars
in the midnight sky

They disappear during the day
hidden from the joy of the sunlight

and

reappear in the dark of the night
at the exact god damn spot

"What can't be solved, is cut"

Friday, November 14, 2003

Fear...

Chests filled with gold,
dozens loafs of bread,
starving still, effortless
thirsty for some whine

Need I explain?
Art is another game
There is no space for insanity
Immortality requires pain...

And there!
For an instant...
a glimpse of time,
I felt...

Fear...

Fire not only purifies but burns.
Water not only refreshes but also drowns.

Art is fire and water
a balance between
genius and madness

Whiskey shifts to madness...

Care to dive into the abyss?
Don't wear your wet-suit...

Thursday, November 06, 2003

Moon, be still this night...

Moon, be still this night
and clouds be silent
stars now light my path
lord of night and day, rest.

Wars we fought, and sought for death
amongst truthful lies and endless circles
the corpse of time will rot no more,
furious and hasty breaths, your horse is tired
lord of night and day, come, rest.

To shoot down your star
to burn your heart with sparks
to forge your temper and soul in painful remorse
to kill yourself on every dawn's waking
Now lost your hope, lost your faith in people
lord of night and day, come now, rest.

The fire still glows,
someone is knocking at the door...
"Can you hear the unearthly roars?
In the city night fog, a killer roams.
Will you answer the call?"

Blood and ripped out bones
dislocated arms and legs
cannibals dancing in your kitchen
"Time to eat, time to eat"

The lord of night,
the lord of day,
has chosen to come,
to sleep the restful sleep,
to close his wary eyes...

And suddenly, once again,
everything was normal, quite and dark...

Tuesday, October 21, 2003

A reunion...

The demon took the offering
fucked my life and killed our bride.
The days are numbered
my revenge is hasted and full.

Come, and celebrate the reunion
of the mythical beasts that roam amongst us.

You are all getting older...

Friday, October 17, 2003

A Vampiric Game

He raised his eyes to heaven
a vampiric game that now was over
a light beam that burned his soul
and there the god approached
and whispered to his ear

"You are hereby summoned
to the halls of the magi
ice cold blood to flow in your veins
and pure harsh logic to determine your will
Heart of stone that still can shiver and bleed
but to save the world another cross must be filled"

"Yes sire,
I learned my lesson
Yes sire,
I humbly kneel before thee
Yes sire,
my blood now cold
Yes sire,
my will independent."

The silence after that
the darkness in his heart
the nightmare that still stands
the visions that blind your eyes
the demanding scream of the god
"Your heart you mortal,
stone carved in total!"

The last tear to be shed,
this last year of true living
his hurt voice that echoed
across continents....

"Yes sire,
my heart of stone
to bleed and shiver
for others again
none other but the whole
I fight and will die for"

And angels with demons chanted
charmingly, welcoming the new king
of this ancient domain.
The price to pay was truly high

"This spirit is dead,
long live the undead master
of the black and red sphere.

This spirit is dead,
long live the swallowing master
of the black and red sphere."

Friday, October 03, 2003

Day and Night

Beyond the bridge of time
above the crossroads
there are only two women

One is called Day....
and the other one Night...

Love them both...
Drink their wine

It's different and strange
but stands eternal through time...

Monday, September 29, 2003

"Respect me"

Heated steel the night-star we stare at
Weather changing attitude every night
Do you still stand the changing of the times?

"I was a king and now you whip my face
I am a twenty six thousand years old
you mess up with my name, my face and history
What can I do?

I light up all your torches,
way back then
and put out mine
what did I get for pay back?

How could I ever explain?
What you cannot explain?
Why should I explain?
Only to be known as a crazy old man?

I am the light of the Earth
I taught you how to walk,
I taught you how to talk,
I taught you how to think
I taught you how to cook and eat
I made you human from monkeys

Now you whip my face
you make me cry,
you steal my identity
you still my writings
you shit in my temples
make movies out of my slaughters
give glory to the murderers

What can I do?"


Intense feelings of revenge and hatred
to eastern and western fake civilizations
No man can stand up and shout "Respect me"
None other deserves it more than him...

Sunday, September 28, 2003

Seize...

Flying fluid objects
Irish drunken street lovers
a mirror on a garbage can
insanity knocks once more on the window

Reaching out to embrace
whatever may come.
Reaching out to disgrace
what you have become.

Finding out the power
to masturbate with the spiral
swinging on the circle of spires
finding out the power

However it may come
embracing must be done
whenever it may come
sense of tranquility, funeral

Seize the day
seize the night
seize life
seize death

I feel it move through my hair
I feel it move across my skin
I feel it move beneath my eyes
Make us go where no one lives

Die and let death defeat
Kill again, once again
savage bestiary monks to rule the world
Fuck your religion, follow me
Fuck your world, you all are mine at will
"Hey Mr. Death, Fuck you"

Saturday, September 27, 2003

A Foreign Guitarplayer

Cold memories from the future
a noir filled with anger and deliverance
pitiful foul god of revenge
I pay for crimes of a past life
or perhaps a future death

"Break the circle
everyone wants to play
everyone's gotta play
everyone needs my sensitive guitar"
the beggar screamed with his drunken voice

Petrified listeners
asking a cigar
throwing dimes just for fun
"Food, a drink, god I need a drink
god opposes those who hate themselves
I know it is fit
I know it fits
My body fits in your grave"

Beggar of the ancient times
Celtic poems written in the dark
cold staring eyes, black haze
dawn will come to find you frozen
lying down under the bench

Same old song
"This song, is for you"
he said to the young boy
A tear escaped my eye prison

Friday, September 19, 2003

Call a doctor...

Everything seems so beautiful
walls painted light blue
sun reflecting on the mirror
rainbow colors from a prism

Smiles and laughter
giggles and games
children playing
parents watching
filled with pride

Harmony
and white clouds
spreading around the horizon
women dancing
men playing and running
music
ecstatic freedom
a smooth breeze
reminds a difference
and everything
seems as a part
of a self denying bliss


But then you wake up
and all you see
is the same
nicotine yellow ceiling
and all you hear
is the distant sound
of the alarm signal
getting louder
until you set
it off...

Where did all the promises go?
Where is the glory we await?
Where is the land they promised us?
Where is the garden?

Am I blind and cannot see?
Am I deaf and cannot hear?
Am I souless and cannot feel?
Am I lifeless and do no live?

Suddently
this feeling of
a long forgotten despair
seems so amusing
it begins with an aching feeling
advances to something more elusive
stops to move, and just looks in your eyes
spits fire on your naked soul and burns every happy thought

and it all
ends
with
a faint
pain
in your
fragile
heart

Somebody...
...Call a doctor...

...A few forgotten faint minutes follow...

Your eyes close
and the mind sinks
into a new nightmare
a dark room
a chair
a faint light
being motionless
staring at the light's source
trying to understand
who are the masters
who are those who choose
whose's life you are living?

We are supposed to be kings and queens...
better the life of a slave
then the life of a nothing
And...
when your troubled mind
grows tired of questioning
you surrender to something
you swore never to return to
and again you hear
laughter and songs
and again you see
happy and smiling faces
grinning with pride and satisfaction
children giggling and playing
flowers and trees that bloom
you just stand there
forgetting where you were
a minute ago
trying to enjoy it
but still
you know not how to smile
you feel not like smiling
you have grown immune
to dreams and nightmares
and you know
that this
is just another
escape dream...

You wake up
in a hospital
surrounded by people that
are paid to care and to smile
that are paid to offer you comfort
"Will I die today nurse?"
but you're voice sounds distant
mixed within a buzzing sound
a sound familiar to the whisper of silence
a whisper that makes sense no more

and you understand

they have lobotomised you
and filled your life with lies
they have deceived you
and you forgot how to
separate the truth from the lie
it all seems the same old lie
it all seems unreal and fake

just paying the price
of a once proud immortality
you stand numb on a surgery bed
trying to understand
why the answer to an attack
is to always holding everything inside
desperately trying to escape
but still afraid to
'cause if you do
they will hit you
as they have done in the past
and you understand again
you are just another
frightened child
that wanted to play a grown up

And as the senses
give in to the ether
and everything tends to be forgotten
as in fainting slowly but still instantly
two small tears escape from their prison
racing between them
which will reach the bottom first
that's what we all are
not men, not women
but god's own
fucking tears...

Wednesday, August 27, 2003

Death Stanza

Can you picture what you'll see
in the reflection of the lake of life?

Can you imagine the beauty
of the voice and the sound
heard during an insane propagation
of a threatical death stanza?

Can you relocate the pain
from the heart to the mind?

Questions exist
to remain unanswered

Monday, August 11, 2003

Daddy, Daddy...

Daddy, daddy
did you ever know
that your pride
your son takes drugs?

Daddy, daddy
did you ever imagine
that your pride
your son is sick?

Daddy, daddy
did you know
that your pride
your son is hated the most?

Daddy, daddy
did you ever notice
that your pride
your son hasn't smiled sice 17?

Daddy, daddy
did you ever understand
that your spride
is nothing but an abuse?

Daddy, daddy
did you ever know
that your pride
your son is killing himself?

Daddy, daddy
did you ever know
that our pride
your son is a sucker?

Daddy, daddy
why did't you let me
fall of my bed
and crack my head
whan I was two?

Daddy says nothin at all...

Sunday, July 27, 2003

Sacrificial Words

Arcane deep and tragic melody
the pearl he found and jousted on him
he has to throw away
The magic he once created
will feed the monster of creation
one more time I come to thee
oh father, for a holy pact
leave them alone
come to me
I can bear the tragedy
make them forget my existence
my time is ending
I cannot prevent destruction
any more
Deep deeper down into their skin
the cancer of tragic music
embraces the equilibrium

Stop oh holy one
go away from them
leave them all alone
and they shall be spared

They shall be spared
but how do you say to them
the words they don't want to hear?

Monday, July 14, 2003

Circle...

I thought and thought
and lived a lie
and dissolved a dream
and all that for what?

To complete the circle
to get back where I started
Start the spiral again
it will never end

You will never escape your circle
you simply don't want that
what more can I do people
than mourn for your stupidity?

It's alright..
I guess It is as I always thought
Things just come...and go...
So no more humble requests
you all have a life-path to follow
I am just a mystery man...
a mere simple cloud....

Saturday, July 12, 2003

Up on the hill

Spiritual lover, endless death
wrote myself my epitaph,
to the king of kings
debuting on my funeral to be
Where, who, why would we all want to grow up?

No difference if you are a child or an adult
I will go now and come back
I will sink into my misery
and rise again up

Where will we be when this year will die out?

He kicked his ass over the toilet seat
he knocked his head on the mirror
punched the shiny doorknob
and once again flushed himself

Florist drink your blood
Rosen garden of cleaved heads
and pain keeps me awake each night
closer and closer to my people
I sense their pain
I will die with them alone
And everything else will prove to be words
once again the prophet will grow immune to his own poison
Whereas he drinks it everyday
in small minor quantities
increasing the possibility of suicide each day
and night by night
where the flowers die on the hasty shadowed fields
when the donkey mount hunches
and the rider falls
and keeps falling
and nothing goes well
and everything is happy
and crazy
and insane
and lost
forever lost


How quiet is it there up on the hill
how calm, peacefully and quiet it is
up there on the hill
how calm and frightening...

Shit

Right there, on this shore,
million stones, samples, sand
stamps of the sea and my feet
Waves crush and hum and echo
in my head it all seems new

It all seems new

And I am back in the game again...

Shit...

It was so fun being bored every minute

Now, back to the shade burning process

Friday, July 11, 2003

Wings

I got wings to fly
I got no destination
places to visit seem boring
far away land, nowhere to go
where?
Where?
There and then back again here...
Why?

I have to go..
Leave this place...
Get outta here...
Break my chain of stability...
Or die before I get old...

Thursday, July 10, 2003

Madman...

How different;
how soft;
child eats candy
marshmallows smiles
chokes, turns red and purple
gasps
cannot swallow this world

decides to close it's eyes and die
a very mature thought

Madman

Madman

Madman

I hereby call upon the gods
to decide on this child's fate
help him someone
it's dying again and again
day by day
it change it's color from white to red
from red to purple green and yellow
turned to black tar charcoal
then gold and shiny melody

Will you prohibit
the cursed exhibition?

Try to do so please...

Tuesday, July 01, 2003

Alive and Living

Knights and flowers
my last resort
last effort
the dragon slain

Emergency cries
last efforts
end of the road

Will you take the sword from my hand?
Will you place me in your worm sanctuary?
Nobody realizes or understand the difference
of being alive and living...

Invitation

Hacked, sliced, torn to pieces
darkness surrounding me
old thoughts raping my virgin mind

Reincarnation of an old Egyptian fleet
dead seeds have we planted on our garden of fear
and our brothers now are burned in hell

To the skies I look and cry out
jokers of the gods we are all
one out of five elements of ether
creatures made of foam
they're nesting in my head

Why, oh why should the harp player seize to share?
Why should simple questions have monotonous answers
and monotonous questions have simple answers?

Are we that insane
meeting our ends at the seven rivers
at the crossroads of five bridges

Nothing is irrelevant anymore
You give value to us
and we shall free you from yourselves
by dying...


Wonna join us?

Wednesday, June 25, 2003

Shipwreck

Shipwreck of time
you spend a lifetime traveling
met new people, races, pilgrims
dedicated your crew to culture

Now you have home again
into this port, harbor heart
sought your selfish kind
enslave them all under your umbrella

Missiles will strike the base of hearts
and a 6 feet wide cock will rip you apart
you stinking liar, gave us money to feed
our tense, made us fight amongst us

For the love of a maiden we drew our swords
and music played and singers sung our stories

Children of lies!
Children of lies!
Children of lies!
Lives full of lies!

Burned our hearts
sucked our sperm
stole our hearts
made us blunt and bold

Where is forgiveness?
Why have we all been forsaken?

Is there anybody who actually understands?
It's the wide but finite road to treason
Suck it and don't ask why
Just do it...

That's the way to earn your place
in this society of lies
suck it yeah
you'll have more to come
and a reward a desk and a paycheck

I'm gonna take a look around now....

Tuesday, June 24, 2003

Hentai Overdose

Precious little girl
run to your pervert teacher
he'll look under your skirt
and think of math and science.

"I see you got no underwear"
he'll put you down and dig you
"I see you are a virgin"
and he will smile and moan

Blood be spilled,
ripped vagina
pervert teacher
called as father

"Girl you were
woman to be
blood be spilled
adult rape"

And you will cry
and tears will fall
mixed with your blood
and his semen

"This is for you little niece
this is for you my little daughter
my little pervert son"

Dirty, dirty world
Japanese assholes

Monday, June 23, 2003

Do you know?

Do you know?
Do you know?
You live in a lie?
You got animals and plants
you got friends and foes
you got everything and nothing
it's all a lie
I tell you, it's all a lie
Trust me I just know

Liar king of wolves
wake up, smash your crown
dive out of your bed
in the velvet carpet floor
a stranger knocking on your door
"It's all a lie mister wake up!"

Somebody wants to kill you
You
want
to....

Drive a car at the edge of the road
common mama
tell me mama
is it another foe
give me a clue
hm...
thinking, thinking
breathing carbon, tar
you know it all don't you?

And the madman laughs
and the insane one cries

Zealots and crazed women
children, children, children
don't be born
hope is lost
for you all...

Save my Soul

You move your hands slowly
you feel them heavy and tired
you see everything moving slowly
evolving right infront of your damn eyes

You live in a lie,
glass and plastic
filled narcistic
lives of kings
for the peasant minded

Uneducated, pervert
raped children
of another time and country
you live in a lie
I live in a lie
nothing is real anymore

What matters the most
is the world...
my world...
I am their king
won't let them suffer...
no more

All wrong
wrong wrong wrong
you liar
you papa mighta have some cum
all night I chew your little gum

Play their game...
Play their game...
Play their game...

You'll never loose...
You'll never loose...

Save my soul...
Save our soul..

Well you tried to see it through
well you found that's all just a lie
messengers and fouls, snakes are all
Let them die,
let them die
instead of lie

I will die...
that's not a lie...

Who am I to be?

Went to the bathroom
looked at the mirror
saw a face smiling
laughing,
liar...

Saw a face crying
filled with anger
and disgust,
liar...

Saw a face of a king
glorious wise,
spat it,
liar...

Saw the face of a frightened son
pathetic, miserable, looser
spat it,
liar...

Punched the mirror
needed not to see
my face filled with agony

Who am I to be?
What am I to be?

Who & what
am I to be?

The Greatest Night

Looked out the window
saw the clouds fighting
and sparks gave light
feeding this dark night

Closed my eyes and
went up there
saw chaos and havoc
massive flare and thunder

Found a razor on the ground
cut my head and hands and fingers
gave one piece to every god
present, gift to remember my word

I woke up laying on the floor
looking at the plastic box
my life now is just a circuit
and simple typed letter

You will never understand
you simply cannot know
there is no word to describe
the colours and sounds that I feel

It's all so old...
The same story...
No way to break out...
I'll lay down here now
Beside this lake
and wait for the serpant to come and meet me
I'll become it's food and water
Time to end this game
lasted long enough
break the glass tower of lies
and fall back to bed to sleep...

Goodbye young boy
you were good
but not the best

Wednesday, June 18, 2003

The other side of the Moon

Have you ever sat alone in the darkest woods?
And forests..
Sitting on a rock...
And howling like a wolf?
Got to get away from this pain....

I don't know where it's comming from...
I look at the moon...
And wonder what's hidden behind it...
We always see the same side...
What lies there... on the other side of the moon?

Tuesday, June 03, 2003

Muddied Nude Woman

In our moon lighten stone path
the shade of the muddied nude woman
appeared, flying through the debris

Lady of the shivering madness
over binding in cruelty
the high rates of modulation
you shall come now forth
your fierce dark lord commands

No is not a choicenot your choice

Monday, June 02, 2003

Burn the Wizard

Pure red...
Pure fire...
Flame
flare
pyre
lava
earthquake
death in LA
Texas beach

Dust
desert
snakes
reptiles
rattling tails
death
Snake kind is back

shit

Explosion
military orders
a dead woman
her dead infant
blood
smoke
cries
tears

It can't be prevented...

"Burn the wizard... burn his soul...
He sold it to Satan... Burn him! Burn him!"

Fools...

Barbarians...

Read the signs...
It's not a talent...
it's around you...

Sunday, June 01, 2003

Come out

Twenty wips on my back
one for every year
I'll raize the sword of vengance
and the acid will become sweet

Mozart...Mozart

Tell me man...

Did you write the equiem for our kind?
Did you write it for me?

Children of Darkness God
Children of the Water God
Children of the Lightning God

Come out... Come out
wherever you are.....